Jan 9, 2020: Thursday

Thursday Night is game night.

We’re two games nights into the year and, as yet, we have not been to a games night. We haven’t even played anything here, although we have set something up for tomorrow, which is nice – and also a pretty iron-clad guarantee I will be working.

We need to get better at this Thursday thing – we tend not to go if it’s just us because what’s the point when we can stay home and play quite happily (not that we did tonight). But we should go and mingle with the other players at the group.

But that’s the problem isn’t it? Because there’s the one in the group that no-one wants and we’ve already had a run in with him and I don’t want that again. I don’t want it at all, in the slightest, ever. I just want it not to happen.

And I know it will. Because it’s us. And I attract weirdos like other people attract non-weirdos. I once had a woman at a bus stop tell me tins were heavy. Weirdos. I get the people from the Church Of The Latter Day Saints or whatever ask me what I’m reading on the bus, and then talking to me about a book they’re reading, called the Bible, have I heard of it. I get those people.

So obviously, he’ll gravitate towards us. And just plonk. And suddenly be in the game.

And I don’t want that. I just want to play a game without some bloody nasal know-it-all telling me I’m doing it all wrong. I want to organically discover it’s all been for nought, rather than be told. I want a “ohhhhhh, we should have been doing….” rather than a “Well, actually, I think you’ll find rule 3 subsection b states…”. Someone who understands the first play of a game is a rehearsal, not a play.

So it’s easy for us to just stay at home as a two and play. Because there’s less chance of a loon appearing.

But we should go out and embrace the chance of a loon. We need to get braver. We need to chance it.

Hopefully, I guess, after I basically told him to fuck off the last time he joined us – and he was then removed by the host of the evening – he wouldn’t just plonk himself in again. But you never know. And I don’t want to find out.

But equally, we need to go more. There might be someone there I can beat.